I miss you so much. I wish you were back in my life like no other, and I wish you were here so I could be saying this to you because it isn’t coming out right on this keyboard. You were the first girl who actually made me happy, and I was so wrong to treat you the way I did in our last month or two. I know this means nothing because you aren’t reading this, but I love you. I have since the first kiss and I will till my last breath. I can’t stop thinking about you, and it makes me smile when I see how happy you are with him, but it hurts. It hurts because you never had that look in your eye with me. It hurts because every time I try to move on you’re there. It hurts because there is a hole inside of me that will grow until it has consumed my soul and swallowed me whole. But I still love you, and I like to think about every moment we spent doing absolutely nothing with each other, those moments were some of the best.